The physician assistant smiles at me. “So tell me about yourself.” “Well, I’m pretty boring, health-wise-“ she laughs. I take a deep breath and try to be breezy, “Except for pregnancy. I have, uh, I had a son and then two miscarriages, then another son, then lost a baby at 21 weeks in April.” Her faceRead the whole post >>
Archives for 2016
Six Weeks Out.
Six weeks ago I was at the hospital. I was dreading going to the labor and delivery floor to give birth to my dead baby. I was so scared of walking in and seeing some hugely pregnant woman getting admitted and getting ready to meet her baby while I was there with my undersized bumpRead the whole post >>
17 Days Out.
I looked outside and suddenly there are flowers and the trees are lush with leaves and the grass is bright green. The earth is brimming with life and yet, I have none. Okay, that sounds more melodramatic than I intended. I’m not sad and lonely and depressed all the time – but being pregnant, I feltRead the whole post >>
Clare.
I’m sad to share that last Wednesday, we found the baby no longer had a heartbeat. I delivered our teeny tiny daughter, Clare at almost 22 weeks on Friday. We are heartbroken and grieving. Life makes no sense right now. You would have been in the best family, Clare. You had the very best big brother there everRead the whole post >>
Heavy.
I don’t know how to write this. The baby isn’t okay. It probably won’t be joining us. We are crushed and heartbroken. There are a lot of details and confusion swirling around in my head right now, but here is some of it: At our anatomy scan on Wednesday, we found out that the babyRead the whole post >>
